“my friends

who are always beautiful & heartbroken

look at me like they know 

I will die before them.

I think the life I have

is the life I want, but how can I be sure?” 

 —Hieu Minh Nguyen

My only advice for you is this. Go within yourself and probe the depths from which your life springs, and there at its source you'll find the answer to the question of whether you must write. Accept this answer, just as you hear it, without hesitation. It may be revealed that you are called to be an artist. Then take this lot upon you, and bear it, its burden and its greatness, without asking for any external reward. For the creative artist must be a world for himself, and find everything within himself—and in nature, to which he is devoted.

Rainer Maria Rilke